I saw your post about giving up horse riding and being put down a lot. Are there any other instructors at your yard, or even any other schools in your area? It's a really huge shame that you aren't enjoying something which could be the best part of your life. If you could change instructors or yards, you could start over. I wish I could bring everyone to my yard, where there are three amazing instructors who will always support you. But I can't, so you should do what you can to find your own.
Thank you so much, I am currently looking around my area for other options. If you want to come off anonymous, we can talk?
I really want to quit horseback riding sometimes. I barely even enjoy it now because I just get torn down by my trainer for being an awful rider and embarrassing her, and apparently no one wants to ride with me because I’m so bad. She gets mad at me for not wanting to take lessons but how can I enjoy paying money to be degraded for an hour? I have a competition next weekend but I don’t even want to go because she basically told me I would lose anyway. I try to ride just for pleasure then she tells me I can do shows anyway so I do then she yells at me for doing shows. I don’t even know what to do anymore.
Are you kidding me? I thought all of the shit this week would end. After everything with my mom, the hot water heater in our house breaking so we have to get new floors, my dads tire being flat on the way to ride my horse Wednesday so I couldn’t even go, and pretty much everything else that’s been going on, my horse’s leg is injured. I thought the one thing that could actually make me happy today would go well. Guess I was wrong. I can’t wait for this week to be over tomorrow.
my mom has breast cancer. i don’t know what to do anymore. i’m terrified though. she went to the hospital yesterday and they’ve been running tests on her ever since. i think she’s going down to a cancer center a few hours away from here tomorrow.
i just feel numb. you never think these things are ever going to happen to you. you always think “oh i’m safe. that’s just a statistic” but it’s not. it does happen to you. and it’s the worst feeling ever. i’m already having a shitty week, my best friend won’t talk to me and school is stressing me out a ton.
my mom’s birthday was 2 days ago. i had such a good weekend, i went to an arts festival with a bunch of schools and it was amazing. i guess all good things have to come to an end.
well. pretty awful day today. my mom was hospitalized. she’s staying there at least 2 nights. she hasn’t been eating and she has really high anxiety, but i don’t know. they’re running a ton of tests on her. and i’m on 4 hours of sleep because i was up until 3 am finishing an essay that i thought was due today but it’s actually due tomorrow. what a waste. and there was lots of resurrected drama at school. on the bright side, my horse was really good today, i got one of the top scores on the practice AP exam in history, and my art teacher gave us a free day. whoop.